emotional

Was smsing my annoying sister,
Me: Woohooo the huge bed all to myself!
Her: Woohooo the chores all for yourself!
Basket. Shall strangle her when she comes back :b

So much for the big and comfy bed, I couldn't sleep yesterday. I thought about my grandma all night. I felt like sucha loser but It's inevitable not to cry each time I think about her. How I got close to her only after she got hospitalised, how I spent my holidays at the hospital, how I waited anxiously for each operation to end, how I fed her (and she'd eat so little), how I'd always be annoyed at the way the nurses there treated patients (one of them shouted at her cos she aske for an extra blanket and another cause she wasn't getting better), how I saw some patients come & go (either discharged or passed on, &I'd pray that It'd not be the latter). I'd always remember the day she passed on, Dad called in the morning, crying, to say her heartbeat was irregular and my Dad never cries. We were all on our way to the hospital when my mum called to say she's gone. I couldn't register that she was gone yet cos I just saw her the previous night and she was getting better and chirpier. Everyone was at the hospital, all happy for her recovery. Apparently, not. I was just getting over my greatgrandma's departure and my grandma had to leave too :/

Well, I guess, God loves her more (:

It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up